The only moment you can be aware of anything, is right now. Awareness is not a memory or a thought. Somehow it is different from thinking, isn’t it? It does not require thinking.
Imagine that you are looking at a tree, with thousands of green leaves slowly waving in the wind. The sunlight shines on the leaves and a complex pattern of shadows moves on the ground below. You hear the leaves rustling. Suddenly you are aware that there is a squirrel watching you from one of the branches. You didn’t notice him before, but NOW you do! The squirrel looks at you for a while and then suddenly jumps off the branch and is gone…
Did it require any conceptual thinking or beliefs to be aware of the squirrel, of its colour, its moving tail, its piercing black eyes? No. It did not, right?
Now that the squirrel is gone, you may begin to think and say to yourself; “That was a cute one! I hope I will see him again, it was such a nice experience…”
But was it an experience at the very moment you were aware of the squirrel? No. It became an experience when you started to think about it afterwards, right?
Do you see the difference between awareness and experience? Awareness does not require thinking or any concepts. It is direct.
Would it possible to be aware most of the time, instead of constantly thinking and having ideas about everthing?
(PS: welcome to awakening)